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Happiness

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I’m sick of everything.....
I’m sick of living each day bearing in everyone’s selfishness.
...and bearing my own selfishness...
The world disgusts me
And it is a given that no one really cares....
What they call faith has been lost
To get it back
I will pay the cost...
My pains don’t bother people....
Everyone disappoints me
Everyone rubs off their pains on me....
I’m tired of understanding everything
I don’t want to be kind or nice anymore...
But I don’t want to be mean either
I’m tired of telling myself its okay
Because in the end its not
I will still feel anxiety
I will still feel remorse
And no one can make me feel better
Everyone takes for granted my pain....
They see me as some idiot who smiles and jokes a lot....
THEY SHOULD JUST SHUT UP ABOUT THEIR PROBLEMS.....
IM SICK OF ENDURING WHATEVER AIRS THEY PUT OFF
AS IF THEY EXPECT ME TO BE SOME UNDERSTANDING FOOL WHO ONLY KNOWS KINDNESS...
They selfishly ask of my support yet in the end….when I need them……….
WHEN ALL I ASK OF THEM IS BUT MERE CONSIDERATION….
I END UP HATING THEM EVEN MORE…
SO WHAT
IS IT WRONG TO BE SELFISH JUST AT LEAST ONCE?!
IM NO GOD
IM NO SAINT
I am human
I am ugly
And beauty does not make me feel better...
I am aware that imperfection is no excuse
I’ve known that for a long time
And that is why…
I hate myself the most
But it’s fine....
Because it doesn’t matter anymore

was never within my reach....
and if ever it was....
then I never caught sight of it...
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