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Oh how I dream, to feel the light
of the sun so far away
the beauty of it would be such a sight
to a wretch whose path gone stray
Your world so pure, an innocent white
it mocks my putrid soul
reminding me of my worthless life
its black....so black, like coal
Its within your light I see the dark
the dark of my own being
the end's beginning, be the moons own mark
that blinds me from truth,worth seeing
Echoes of breaking glass ripples through the night
Ruins of the fallen loved one
I no longer know of what is right
tell me have you forgotten someone?
Broken dollsBroken Dolls
I lay here in the wake of eternal darkness
Waiting for your gentle touch
Your pleasant smile fills me with so much happiness
Is it sin, to find happiness as such?
My dearest, tonight let me sing you a song
Of a doll that loved you so
Here in ruins of a broken dream, I've waited for so long
Cherishing memories I will never let go...
The pain that I feel, within this porcelain heart...
It breaks my very being
Feigning bliss, I'm being torn apart
Your presence is my only healing...
I always thought, your love held no cost
That is until you pushed me away...
Your gone forever leaving me cold and lost
Never to know, of what I truly wish to say
My dearest, I only wish for your joy...
Such feelings unbefitting of a toy
Yet here I am living in this very moment...
Your absence alone brings me unrelenting torment
The years go by and you've lived on without me...
My dearests...please come back...
I'm breaking away with time...do you not see?
Only you can fill the emp
Days of past when the world was bright
you, my friend was the sun
but now your no more but a dreadful sight
that leaves me the urge to run
You told me all your sorrows
as if Id wash them away
you dread the coming morrows
live with fear everyday
My sentiments were sympathy
I cared for you the most
but you just gave me cruelty
and to that I give a toast
You say no one cares
your just blinded by self pity
to think, you wouldnt dare
to see life for its reality
As long as it pleases you
thats all that really matters
the pain here is true
my heart you tore to tatters
For once just stop
and erase the word "I"
CAUSE IVE HAD ENOUGH
my pain is no lie
You listen in ways not sincere
you cause me so much pain
the times that I died in here
in my heart, its all the same
I still love you....
You did things worth while
but theres nothing left for me to do
ive lost my will to smile
To you my dearest friend
to your selfish, ruthless ways
on this very moment I end
our blissful, painful days
If your go
Leave Me BehindI punished myself today
Because I needed to
The guilt was eating at me
I didn't know what else to do
You say I don't deserve it
But we both know that's not true
The reason is very clear
I deserve it 'cause I hurt you
Even though I'm scared
To let this friendship end
You're better off this way
I don't deserve to be your friend
So you better run away
Before I change my mind
Run away and leave me
Just leave me behind
Your life will be much better
So you better do it now
I won't blame you for it
That is my solemn vow.
Tales Of An InsomniacThe clock keep ticking down the hour,
The numbers glow a bright green.
We watch it for an hour as the numbers
Slowly change on the screen.
Sleep deprivation is something that
We are all completely used to facing.
With every second we can't sleep,
The moments make us continue chasing.
From sun rise to sun set, day to night,
We watch the sky change its' hues.
We always wake in the morning with exhaustion,
But then again that's old news.
Every night it happens all over again;
Tossing and turning, failure to go to sleep.
We know that someday we'll be okay.
That truth lies in all of us, buried hard and deep.
As the seconds pass us by we count them.
They are our sheep to count so we can rest.
Although it is hard to believe we'll be okay,
I promise one day you'll sleep the best.
Make It Up To YouI don't understand
Why you are still here
After everything that's happened
You should have disappeared
But you still haven't left
You haven't abandoned me
Which makes no sense at all
Without me, you'd be free
Although it boggles my mind
That you continue to stay
I am eternally grateful
I tell the Lord every day
I truly don't deserve it
But I'll make it up to you
I'll give up everything I have
Until I finally do
And then I can rest easy
And rid myself of this shame
From all the times I hurt you
And I'll no longer feel this pain
And when that day arrives
And I've repaid my debt
I'll be able to meet you eye to eye
Just like the first day we met
I love you my dear friends
And I know you love me too
But before I can love myself
This is something I must do
So please wait for me
Don't give up on me just yet
I'll make you proud to be my friends
So that it's something you don't regret
Puzzle PieceEmpty house along the way
Stop for awhile
A feeling of loneliness
Missing piece in a puzzle
Just one glance
Just one moment
Just one wish
That this is actually mine
My missing puzzle piece
Everything comes is just an illusion
This was never mine in the first place
Hoping against faith
That someday somewhere
I'll be able to find
All together the missing pieces
In this messy and crazy puzzle piece.
The BucketA teacher once said to me,
"A life is like a bucket."
I have learned over the years that this is true.
If you give someone a compliment, or say or do anything kind,
You pour an infinitesimal yet meaningful amount of liquid into that person's bucket.
But alas, those who insult
And rip apart hope,
They dip into the bucket, and take out that precious liquid gold.
Once that person runs out, you in turn cause their self-destruction.
You could lead that one innocent person to take their own life away.
Just one little smirk or look of disgust
Could leave them bone dry.
You may think it funny now: to insult and make fun,
But imagine the feeling you'd feel when you see that person's face--
Plastered all over the news.
That nervousness and guilt
Creeping up your spine as you get shivers all over.
It's unbearable, no?
You know you no-handedly helped cause someone's death.
So think before you say something--anything.
If it hurts someone enough,
You could dip into their bucket
And leave it
Romance's Death Penaltyit wouldn't be romantic if we made love beneath the stars,
because i rather watch them play hide & go seek than please you.
it wouldn't be romantic if you told me i was your everything,
because i don't want to be your lies.
Romantic phrases nor romantic gestures could resurrect my faith,
i just want your ill-tempered jealousy to enslave me.
all have flaws
have more than
what is it?
about someone that are
only humans can lie
can be violent and
is only capable by a human
is not the source of
is too often
is shown through
are too weak and
through too much
can be our
if we give it any more
FearToo scared to move
From the seat that I'm in
Too scared to speak,
I'm practically frozen.
Too scared to sleep
'Cause I know I'll soon wake
Too scared to stay up
I might make a mistake
Too scared to cry
Because people might see
And then they will wonder
What's the matter with me?
They'll ask me what's wrong
Prepared to give aid
But I cannot tell them
'Cause I'm too afraid.
Drops on the glassDrops on the glass
Every day I walk down the same street,
Always looking for people to meet,
Smiles and joy is All I know,
But now it seems fate will show.
Foolish then Foolish now,
Only then was I asked to bow,
For I had went home ,Where I thought it was safe.
As I walked in the door,
I saw my mother's corpse on the floor,
drenched in blood, shot in the head.
Same for my sister,
Who looked asleep in her bed.
I walk to the window to look around,
when just then I heard a sound.
My father coming to me now,
a loving smile, stained with sin.
He got on one knee and asked me,
"Do you believe in god?"
Before I could answer,
He pulled out his gun,
cocking it back like I knew he would.
Asking one more time ,
while sticking a gun to my head,
looking up to the father i knew as mine.
I smiled and flatly said "No"
So just then like my mother and sister.
My blood became just drops on the glass.
"With the crown of snow cometh wisdom"
May the years that pass, fall gently like snow
so calm so pure, its what natures best can show
be the memories of past freeze still with time
the beauty resounds like a golden wind chime
may tomorrow bring hope, be what remains of the day
so much has happened, left with nothing to say
though my pain be pitiful, I look up with a smile
as I look back at the problems, overcoming took a while
Be I, proud to stand with a new found faith
of which in past I thought was far too late....
to crumble up
the remnant pieces
of my love for you
and throw them in the trash
but I'm such a bad shot.
ViolinI remember the day
you told me violins
were strung with cat gut
and that is why
you hated music
(who says that to a child?)
I followed you
all that summer.
I watched you
grow away from mother -
your whiskey held better conversations
and all she did was cry.
We'd sit cross-legged on the porch
and count the horseflies
settling on our lunch.
You would drown tadpoles
in a bucket
surprised they could not swim
and I would dream
of cherry popsicles.
And when night would gather
on the sidewalk
I'd hold my breath
until a star appeared.
Don't bother making wishes
you'd tell me -
stars are dead weight in heaven
and God has cloth ears.
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